Hey Everyone! Can you believe that it’s already December (edit: MID-December)? Where has 2017 gone? I was looking at some old photos that popped up in my editor and I found a photo that said the same thing about 2016. I was always told time goes faster when you’re older…never thought it would be true!
Anyway, I’m here today to make my yearly, thought filled post. Warning: It may be long and drawn out, but luckily it only comes once a year. I saw a draft of my yearly thoughts that I started in March, which clearly I never posted. A lot has changed in my life since then, so I figured I would start from scratch and save that one for next year.
In March, I reflected on 2016, overall I thought it was a really great year for me (yes, I was broken up with, but it was for the best). I vowed to myself to make 2017 even better. I had all these plans about projects, recipes, and places visit that I would eventually share. If you could see the number of draft posts I have, you would think that I was a crazy person. Things all changed when I applied for a new job and my free time shifted. If you’ve read any of my previous posts or watched my videos, you’ll see that in August I accepted a new job which required me to relocate to Columbus.
“Jen, the title of this post is ‘thoughts on staying creative,’ why are you sharing all this background.” Slow your roll, voice-inside-my-head, I’m getting there!
It became really hard for me: balancing new job, organizing a move, and still wanting to be creative. This is how my YouTube was born. I still wanted to share my life and my experiences, but had to think of a different medium. There are still a few videos I wanted to shoot but never got the chance, but I am still happy with what I have produced thus far.
I’ve always considered myself a creative person. However, there have been two times in my life I’ve been in a creative slump. Once was when I was in college as an art major. My third year in, the creativity was sucked out of my through countless studio classes, art history papers, and working a full time job. It took me a little bit to bounce back, but I made it through.
The second time is right now. Moving has taken a toll on me, mentally and physically. I didn’t think it would be this hard.
I’ve always been an independent person who prided themselves on figuring it out alone. What I learn since I’ve moved is that it’s okay to ask for help. I kept telling myself that I could do it on my own, but sometimes you just can’t. Lots of tears (and unfortunately dollars) later, I’m starting to get my creativity back (I won’t waste your time on this story, if you want to know then leave a comment!). So, why am I talking about this when the post is about staying creative?
I’ve decided to take the rest of the year off from posting. Mentally, I’m spent. It’s hard having a full time job, running a blog and Etsy shop, and still maintaining a social life. I was too caught up in still trying to live the life I lived in Akron without thinking about the fact that I need to establish myself in Columbus. I want to start off 2018 right. As stupid as this sounds, it’s a milestone year for me. It’s my 10 year high school reunion and marks five years I’ve been out of college. If I’m lucky enough, my one year anniversary with my BF will be in January. I’ll have been blogging for four years and my Etsy’s been open for three. I need to take some time to reflect on my mission and goals.
So what does this mean?
I am sad to say that my Etsy will not be open for this Holiday season. I am saving the little creativity I have for family and friend holiday gifts. I will be taking the month of December to start planning posts for 2018 (I’m already excited and have started on a few!!). Ultimately, I need this time for myself. I’m trying to get my feet on the ground and make friends in Columbus. The Pinball community down here has already been so welcoming and I am very thankful for all of them.
Final thoughts: It’s okay to admit you need help. If you are naturally a creative person and feel uninspired, don’t be afraid to ask for help. Just talking to someone lifted 15 pounds off my shoulders. Talk to other creative people, chances are they’ve been through what you’re going through and have advice to help.
Alright boogers, I’ll see you in 2018! Happy holidays and have a safe and happy new year!